Haunted by you…
I am a little tipsy but couldn’t help myself opening my notebook and start writing again about my Rayver…
I just came from a nightout with my friends. I was trying to occupy myself with things to at least forget him for a moment. But it doesn’t turned out to be what I wanted.
When my friends came, their first question was “where is Rayver” and I said “I didn’t invite him here”. The truth is, I really wanted to but I controlled myself not to indulge into my temporary insanity where I would be happy for a couple of hours and be totally lonely after. But then, regrets has it because have I chosen to be temporarily insane at least I felt the happiness of being with him. Not like what I am in a couple of hours ago and until now.
As I have mentioned, my friends are expecting me to come with him as my buddy. The worst thing is they are asking me if we are “on”, as in “me and Rayver” as partners. They are telling me that we are getting along well so why not have it the way people are expecting about the two of us? If they only knew that I really wish we are! Oh God! I am becoming so pathetic!
The music is playing. The dance beats are on. And, it was Rayver I am thinking of! Reminiscing how he moved to the beat of the songs. How close we were while dancing the last time he was with us. Silly me I should have asked him to come…
Oh well, maybe that is how things are going to be until I can find a way to flush him out of my system. I will be a little busy the coming week because of the deadlines at work but I don’t know how to actually keep myself from thinking about him. What I am sure of is that I am officially missing him…
