My Life Before Rayver
I have been into a relationship for eight years with a man whom I thought I’ll marry someday as everybody has expected it. But things did not turned out to be what we both have planned….
We used to talk about marriage then and I must admit that it was the one thing I am waiting for to materialize after that eight long years of being in the relationship. He is not a dream guy. Worst, he is super “bolero” that he can make a girl fall for him easily. Most of our issues are because of “other girls” which has also caused our relationship to end.
Before, I could tolerate his, uhm, “playfulness” with other women but it has reached its limits when he got a girl pregnant. For which I could not just pretend that things aren’t happening since there’s a living proof! Much more I could not let myself suffer by allowing him reconcile with me and see the fruit of his infidelity grow. I also don’t want to deprive an innocent child a chance to be with his biological parents. So, I let go…
Someone told me that I should believe in some sort of magic when it comes to relationships. For it will determine whether people are meant to be. I was once asked if I have felt that magic with my ex-boyfriend and I asked in return what is magic? Then, I was told that I haven’t really felt it because I asked what it is. Maybe yes, maybe no, I really don’t know then…
Now, with Rayver I’ve another question in mind about magic. For there is something that I felt when I saw him and something that I continually feel when he’s around. Could this be the magic that they keep on telling me? Would it be possible that I am the only one feeling it? How unfair it is that it seems to be a one-sided feeling…
Nah, maybe just an infatuation…O-oh! infatuation has the same meaning as LOVE!
